eurovision

Watching eurovision on my own, it sucks a bit. I normally like to go to parties and get pissed and go on twitter. I was too exhausted to socialise tonight anyway. We have a new girl at work and I've been training her, and she's really nice, but talking all day just knackers me. It meant I didn't get to be on my own with my other co-worker too who is really quiet and we normally like to talk. Anyway, the girl is really nice and we have a lot in common, but it's the weird moment when you're still getting to know each other.

I feel weird and muffled. I wish I could come off these meds. I remember speaking to someone at uni last year, and him saying he didn't want to go on meds because he didn't want to be a zombie. I was like nah that won't happen! Guess he was right kinda.

eurovision continued

I started writing that entry last night and then exited the screen because I realised I was way too tired to be writing it. I feel tons better today. Just had a really relaxed morning and gonna read through my dissertation, maybe edit and write a bit before a friend comes round this afternoon. I even feel like I look better today. I remember saying to someone I dated last year, that I had got way more beautiful lately, but now I feel like I've hit the peak and am going downhill. Everything has taken it's toll and I've always had sad eyes.... maybe it's just in my mind though, because I do look good today. Maybe it's all to do with how we feel. (Just gonna be unapologetically narcissist.)





I don't know if that's gonna work.
I'm wearing a new dress my boyfriend ordered ages ago and it just arrived yesterday. It's a bit small around my hips so I'll have to wear tights with it if I go out. I guess I should feel happy with being tall and somewhat willowy anyway. Just wanna keep working out, eating carrots and hummus. I wanna eat healthily but I also wanna eat vegan, and that's way harder than it sounds.
My boyfriend is so cute btw. Don't wanna post a picture but I'm in love with the way he looks in this one photo when he had a moustache. Everyone told him it looks bad, but that look just kills me! He has the most sensitive green eyes too. I don't think I've ever been with someone with green eyes before. Anyway, now he's cut his hair really short and shaved :( he still looks cute, but I'm hoping he'll let his hair get long and messy again. Shit, I never thought I'd fall for a french guy who's both shorter and younger than me.

Well anyway, I'm gonna do some reading then some stretching and then go buy some hair dye with my friend. Need to write back to Jesse too!!
And I'm gonna be working Monday-Thursday. Kill me.
I bashed my nail earlier and I swear to god it was the most painful thing I've experienced since getting my tattoo.