eurovision continued

[ophelia11]

I started writing that entry last night and then exited the screen because I realised I was way too tired to be writing it. I feel tons better today. Just had a really relaxed morning and gonna read through my dissertation, maybe edit and write a bit before a friend comes round this afternoon. I even feel like I look better today. I remember saying to someone I dated last year, that I had got way more beautiful lately, but now I feel like I've hit the peak and am going downhill. Everything has taken it's toll and I've always had sad eyes.... maybe it's just in my mind though, because I do look good today. Maybe it's all to do with how we feel. (Just gonna be unapologetically narcissist.)





I don't know if that's gonna work.
I'm wearing a new dress my boyfriend ordered ages ago and it just arrived yesterday. It's a bit small around my hips so I'll have to wear tights with it if I go out. I guess I should feel happy with being tall and somewhat willowy anyway. Just wanna keep working out, eating carrots and hummus. I wanna eat healthily but I also wanna eat vegan, and that's way harder than it sounds.
My boyfriend is so cute btw. Don't wanna post a picture but I'm in love with the way he looks in this one photo when he had a moustache. Everyone told him it looks bad, but that look just kills me! He has the most sensitive green eyes too. I don't think I've ever been with someone with green eyes before. Anyway, now he's cut his hair really short and shaved :( he still looks cute, but I'm hoping he'll let his hair get long and messy again. Shit, I never thought I'd fall for a french guy who's both shorter and younger than me.

Well anyway, I'm gonna do some reading then some stretching and then go buy some hair dye with my friend. Need to write back to Jesse too!!
And I'm gonna be working Monday-Thursday. Kill me.
I bashed my nail earlier and I swear to god it was the most painful thing I've experienced since getting my tattoo.

Comments

[jesse_dylan]

I think you may be on to something, that it may be all to do with how you feel. At least, until you get to be my age, har har, in which case you have to avoid mirrors to avoid bursting into tears.

It also has a lot to do with the influence of others, you know? If we have people around us who love us, or maybe more specifically someone around us who really thinks we're good-lookin', it does help us feel better about ourselves. I know maybe it's not the healthiest, but we are bombarded every day with marketing that tells us what is attractive and what isn't, and that marketing might also try to convince us that we are unattractive and would be more attractive if we did XYZ (which coincidentally makes money for a lot of people) #CAPITALISM

The photo worked, and I love the dress he got you!!!! You should have shown DW your eyebrows too though because they are always ON FLEEK.

I truly do not think you have sad eyes. I have never once looked at you, in all the times I have looked at you, and thought, "Sarah has sad eyes." But I think I might be predisposed toward people with sad eyes, too. Everyone likes happy people, but sometimes happy people freak me out, and I have to wonder what they're hiding. There is something to be said for a pair of sad eyes. Not that I'm saying you have sad eyes.

GREEN SHIRT BOYFRIEND PHOTO. If I was with a lady who told me she wanted me to keep my mustache (or, as they say in France, moustache), I'd have kept the damn mustache. He does look nice with messy hair, too, yes. And he does have lovely green eyes.

Anyway, don't stress about writing back to me! I will still be here when the time comes. :P